Sunday, September 26

Gifts --- Feast is at our house tonight! I miss my friends!


I have recently determined that Tori Amos may just be an angel! Apparently people who love her often also love Bjork (the two of them are my favorite musical artists after Tool). It's such a beautiful day today! I always love to look out the window from this spot, out on the neighbor's magnolia tree - my favorite! (the lilac tree is up there too!)


Improv poetry time!



Love sprinkles gay sparkles true bliss


Try now to give all and find strength


For the road is behind and remiss


In the face of those blind to its length.


Peace to the poor,


Sight to the sad,


Gift to the gift.



For you reader, I wish this love, and I give you some.

Saturday, September 18

Stake --- My Meisner class has picked up again! it's a great tool for living in the moment: one of the goals is to respond to what's happening immediately with the other actor, as opposed some pre-arranged idea of how a scene should play out.


Volleyball games should start soon. The Baha'i choir is getting together again - working on "He Verily Loveth the Spot" (VERY hard!!). Sherry and I have started playing together again (also awesome prayers together). The Richmond Local Spiritual Assembly (including myself) should be studying Ruhi Book 4 (on the history of the Faith), and I'll be tutoring the book at the Falconers starting October 6. I'm very happy.


Today I walked to cure (type I) diabetes! It was a great event, held nation-wide, and sponsored by JDRF. We raised lots of money for research! My co-workers Niki and Keith, and his wife Chrissy - we all walked together. Then, spicy black bean hummus wrap for danio!

tonight, more Def Poetry - this time with a crowd! Maybe some role-playing too!

Sunday, September 12

Everything --- I wonder... Does anything mean _everything_ to others? I look at the research I'm doing in Performance Studies, and think, "this means _everything_!" - as in, it's a crucial piece to the development of humanity, or at least human civilization. The same happens with some of the things people I know are involved in. Some things just have to be done. There's no way out of it. My passion is performance, so when I watch Def Poetry, I think, "this means everything," "this _has_ to be done." We're connecting human involvement in the world, human _performance_ in this life, with the essence of purpose and fulfilment, like when Tool says to "swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be human." The crazy album Bjork just and company just put out _had_ to be done. At the moment, our understanding of art and its ramifications are infinitessimal, groping to a world order wherein entertainment is on side of the coin, and ritual/healing/transcendence, as expressed in many cultures is the other. There is more, though. There has to be. Performance studies is digging in the mine, finding occasional gems in our cultures and heritage, awaiting to find at any moment a giant gem, a hidden world, a new Reality, or even a chapter or two from the "Book of Creation"!!


That's why I will devote the rest of my life to Performance Studies, and practicing the results and findings. Culture and society feeds, and feeds on, performance. Performance is a timeless currency, a levener, an end and a means, a seed and a fruit, a piece of the puzzle and a side of the polygon, a fraction and a factor, an engine and an energy.


Cascading down the mountain of Being, Life splashes into Living.

Tuesday, September 7

Mountains --- Ann Brenneman and I got to teach the 12-14-year-olds at Shenandoah Baha'i conference over the weekend. It was tremendously gratifying, especially seeing how they grew from rather reluctant and distant from the process to the point where they embraced it and took ownership. I got a new copy of the Seven Valleys (Baha'u'llah) which has a different set of endnotes, which adds a bit to my understanding. My car is in the shop again. For the same reason I brought it in on Fri... they had better fix it! Butterfly Effect was okay.


Peter, Orion, Robbie and I have started watching Def Poetry, a series of poetry performances hosted by one of my three or four favorite hip hop artists, Mos Def. It's just about the best television I have ever seen. Exquisitely inspiring. Work is hectic (sp?) again.


Bjork is crazier than ever (yes, and undeniably so) on her new album Medulla. It seems like it might also actually be good...

Wednesday, September 1

Worlds --- Life is too good for words! I'm getting back into the Seven Valleys - what an amazing journey! There are four worlds described therein, which provide an assistance in perceiving unity in all of God's creation.


Tonight is the last night for our bk 1 study circle!


I just orderd Bjork's new album, Medulla!


The Cluster Reflection Gathering was an immense success!


I'm back from house-sitting (AGAIN!) - and this one was the most enjoyable. I already miss Guiness & Zo (dog and cat)... and a house to myself is always nice...


I have checked out a whole bunch of books from the library to work on my new paper in performance studies, which will probably be called "What Truth?" - with a fancy, longer second part of the title, like "At the juncion of culture and established modes of meaning conveyance" or "How pedagogy, entertainment, and XXX signify to their audience" or "Questioning the established models of convincing performances" or "Potential expansions beyond our inchoate performance vehicles" (it'll be better than any one of those, I promise!)


I have to choose what weekly or bi-weekly activities I'll be doing this fall out of the following: 2-3 study circles, volleyball, Tai Chi, Capoeira, Choir, (mini)-band, role-playing, and probably a couple more... decisions decisions...

Tuesday, August 24

Houses - This is the third time I'm house-sitting in barely a month! This house is definitely cosy, and I love Guiness the big cute old dog, Zo the cat-that-won't-let-you-pet-it-but-pets-itself-on-you, the fishes, and the plants!


Although I thought Jason and I had come up with the band name Placebo, they already exist, and make pretty decent music (the chorus currently playing on "my" computer says "protect me from what I want"...


Expressions of the Spirit is going well. We've had three workshops, all great, and two more will follow in September.


Brent is gone. We role-played a lot, did some free-styling, played video games, and most importantly went to the mountains, in Shenandoah, and had the grandest time. On the weekend we play ghosts, trying to figure out why we're still around - kind of...

Tuesday, August 17

Kings --- Brent, Orion, Peter, Robbie... the whole crew is here, and we're acting like a bunch of (near-) geeks! Video games, role-playing games, freestylin', poetry-ing, and eating festively every day, with Midge's perpetually stupendous cooking! I have an awesome friend that turns out to live just an hour away or so, so maybe I'll be able to catch-up with him soon. I'm realizing that things have slowed down a little. They should pick up again soon, I expect, but I'm enjoying the near-downtime... I've started up recording a couple of dreams last week - I'm gonna try and stick with it! Wish me luck! Love around the world.

Monday, August 9

Wrought --- I got the "Mother Book" of Performance Studies, namely "Performance Studies: an Introduction." It may sound obvious, but for a field that's barely 30 years old, and ultimately complex, this year-old book is quite the gem, in that it brings everything together (by compromising and unifying different standards of terminology, gathering a multitude of concepts brought forth by a variety of authoritative figures, and presenting invaluable models of approach), as well as opens up innumerable questions and potential directions (by asking some of the prominent unanswered dilemmas, and providing various very to slightly relevant references). I also bought the "Performance Studies Reader", which collects important essays in the field. I am oh-so-psyched!


On Sat. I role-played a ghost who awakens 7 years after his death and finds his family destitute and aimless. His brother (played by Peter) and he embark on a mission to make their life better again - only they will soon find that it is not by forcefully imposing one's own understanding of "better" that anything gets better. It was a great game, and next week, we may have up to 4 extra players.


The Watermellon festival is just about the biggest thing in Richmond, and was definitely lots of fun (open-air market-style with dollar-bowls of watermellon, various food stands, major sales in several great local stores, etc.)


The Dead Can Dance

Friday, August 6

Greed --- just finished another week of house/baby-sitting, where the children didn't allow me much access to a computer.
So many wonderful things!!!
I'm reestablishing contact with a couple of best friends; we've got a grand ol' reunion coming up with the Richmond "guys"; I've started my research on a new paper in Performance Studies, partly inspired by my upcoming application to grad schools for 2005; our Ruhi Book 3 study circle should end tonight, and we should be starting a book 4 in the Fall; I am now "cluster coordinator"; I got a fat bonus from my job; the long-awaited Reflections of the Spirit workshop will begin this Sunday (Sunday! Sunday!); I'm getting spiritually much closer to a couple of friends at work; I have a lovely friend that will be visiting soon from NC, and another lovely friend moving to Baltimore; I'm now playing music and singing not only with my friend Sherry, but also with my aunt Kim; and to top it off, I'm expecting a double-CD of the Dead Can Dance any day now!!!

Tuesday, July 27

Power --- I just got back from house-sitting at a house where there's NO COMPUTER!
Here's a review of the movie Spiderman 2:

Much like his predecessors on the big screen, Peter Parker lives aseries of challenges and victories which, though we cannot directlyrelate to them, symbolize the great journey we all go through.  In summary, he discovers his powers and learns to battle evil and help hisfellow humans.

Some superheroes furthermore teach us to grapple with our sense of dutyand our true purpose in life.  Spiderman takes these lessons severalsteps further.  Indeed, unlike the others, Peter Parker is the firstsuperhero of whom I can honestly say, "I want to be like him."  This feeling relates mostly to his outstanding spiritual qualities.

I will mention the three most notable. Clearly, Peter Parker is ahumble chap. Despite his greatness, he is never seen using his powersto elevate himself over others (except one fight in the first movie). How tempting it would have been to redeem himself in the eyes of hisaunt by saying: "Yes, I did let uncle die, but I've learned, and now Isave lives every day..."

One might also notice his radiant acquiescence. Throughout the movie, he graciously accepts the most dire adversities, the most grueling humiliations. From his financial and career failures to his inability to get a cocktail at a gala, he always shrugs it off and (nearly) happily moves on.  Even when his best friend slaps him in the face(twice!), he recognizes what the latter is going through and lets it go.

Peter Parker is, at last, ultimately sacrificial, and this is constantlyevidenced. His understanding of sacrifice, however, is much deeper than Hollywood ever sees.  In a society where nothing surpasses the paramount "duty" of following one's dreams, Spiderman's explicit message is that "Sometimes to do the right thing, you have to give up what you want,even your dreams."

That people everywhere are raving about this blockbuster is great confirmation of the inspiring power of such a character, and provides great hope for their receptivity of spiritual lessons.  In fact, the movie has many more explicit lessons: in truthfulness, detachment, perseverance, forgiveness, patience, generosity, etc.

To top it off, the film is a masterpiece of cinema: stellar performance from the somewhat intimate cast (the scene with Dr. Octavian and his wife is as warm and comforting as they get); stupendous special effects (who could tire of Spiderman's freedom in the air?); lavish sets (the crumbling hanger dazzles the eyes!); smooth transitions and pacing; and, of course, riveting action (the mechanics and intricacies of the movement of and fights between the two antagonists had my mind racing to capture the particular physics of each moment!).  Not only does the movie delight us with action, but it also feeds us great drama, almost-but-not-quite-mushy romance, suspense, surprisingly sassy comedy- even a captivating horror sequence (when Dr. Octopus's mechanical arms take over in the hospital). In summary, watch Spiderman (1 &) 2, and rejoice!

I also highly recommend "50 First Dates," a brilliant, heart-warming romantic comedy, as good as, if not better than, "The Wedding Singer"!

Monday, July 19

Truth --- I get to house-sit at a gorgeous home for a whole week, starting Wednesday! I'm psyched!  The lady told me that her two dogs will most likely want to sleep under the sheets with me, and that the cat is a bizarro in need of much attention.  I'm listening to an opera radio station!  One of my best friends delivered a beautiful girl recently (I've seen tons of pictures)! My (past-) supervisor is due any day now!  There are way too many untranslated Writings of Baha'u'llah - I feel deprived...  I have posted a summary of my two-week vacation. Check it out! http://danio.allmail.net. (Click on Summer 2004.) My sis' and my nephew come to town tomorrow for a week!

Wednesday, July 14

Back? --- I'm back in Richmond, and running around spinning plates. God is good... all the time. That's for sure. I don't expect to post until this weekend, at which point I plan to summarize my latest adventures.

Monday, June 21

Union --- I just heard news of the most wonderful union: the engagement of two most beautiful and wondrous souls. Ruhi Book 4 planning is going well. Sarah and I will have a grand time. Last acting class tonight (until the fall). I've got a call-back for a show that starts in Sept: Kingdom of Earth, by Tennessee William. Cool! I'll have to see if I can actually fit it in my schedule... I miss my friends. That's the truth.

Tuesday, June 15

Rain --- tonight, after getting so bored of "Ladykillers" that Robbie and I walked out of the theater, we went to eat a Thai appetizer and fried icecream. Peter joined us. Then we sat on a bench on the sidewalk in the middle of the terrential rain, and created ourselves a moment, as it were... I had some auditions tonight. They seemed good. I read a chunk from the National Spiritual Assembly yearly report - the Office of External Affairs is experiencing very challenging times. I love brushing my teeth!
Theatre --- we had a great class yesterday, I'm really liking this Meisner method... I came to a realization last night, regarding the value of this method, and how it relates to the endeavor of using the performing arts to express truth. Thereupon, I decided on the topic of my next research paper. I expect I should be able to start my research in September, and write a decent paper by the time I re-apply for grad school in December. This morning I dreamt of a dragon-wolf. He was gorgeous. And then the twirling sentient flowers landed on the green hill and became ptarmagons - bad omen...
Goodbyes --- You never know what you've got 'til it's gone, right? Nope. I think part of walking through the Valley of Knowledge, the part about seeing the end in the beginning, allows us to avoid this problem. I don't know if I'm in this Valley, but I have a decent sense of this quality. For instance, I believe I had a good sense of the value of having the Cooks around in our community while they were here - though I miss them sorely. Oh! I got a cell phone!!! how awesome is that? (you might be cringing right now, but think about it... it had to happen...) I've got a picture of Jenna Cook on my screen (who came up with the idea of a _camera_ in a _phone_?). She's very sweet - we had a pleasant evening together before the family took off. Life is good.

Monday, June 7

Things Slow Down --- It's funny, even though I'm really not doing less (in fact, it seems still more and more), the crazy madness feeling of everything overwhelming me, after going through a phase of comfortable acquiescence, has now receded to the background a little, leaving a funny blandness in it's wake... A new experience for danio!!!
The day after the concert, we had a marvelous gathering to wish farewell to the wonderfull Cook family. The three youth/children have been role-playing with our group all year, and we've had beautiful times together. I will sorely miss them, for sho'! There was so much love at this gathering! One of the most exciting things is the prospect of spending more time with my cousin Katherine. She's totally awesome!
Sherry and I had our first public performance. It was fun. We also got to see a bunch of other awesome performers at the yearly Unity Courtyard Concert in West Point, VA. Great times. At the end of the concert, a bunch of people who are involved in "Expressions of the Spirit" got together to check in. It looks like we have significant support. I'm hoping we can kick this off the ground around mid-July. We'll see. At this stage, it's still difficult to tell the pace of such things. Looking great, though - we have awesome people working together!

Sunday, May 30

Beauty --- It's been so great to have this bird (it might be a couple of birds) singing all day while we're going through Ruhi book 4 (on the life of the "Twin Manifestations" of God - a history of the Baha'i Faith)! It's like they're assisting us. God too is assisting us, as we have very little time to go over all of the material... It's going great. I'm missing someone very much, though. Funny how emotions get... The choir had a beautiful performance today - another demonstration that, even if we suck in practice, when we trust in God, the Beauty flows through us despite our frailties... Good times!